God must hate me

A self portrait trilogy about self love and depression.

Self love was something I struggled with immensely when I was younger. Around the start of the pandemic in 2020, the way I viewed myself became a very big and prominent part of my life. It didn’t matter if it was something about me that was physical or mental, all of it was bad. "I'm not fat, but I could be skinnier." "I'm so annoying." "I hate myself so much.” I used to say these things to my friends a lot and kind of let them slide off as jokes, but even saying it out loud made me believe they were actually true. These images were shot back in 2022 when I was finally in a better and more confident place in my life. They are a visual interpretation of how I felt when I was at my worst and are inspired by my own struggles with depression and self love.